.........ok..here's the thing,.....
i don't understand my feelings right know..i'm totally confused if i STILL like him or i SHOULD forget him..BTW, he's going to college already and i can't stop him to do so just for me to see him..i know that everything is too late but i also know that every scrambled situation like this should have a solution to make things better..yah, it's hard, but i hve no choice but to do so..
everytime i hear, see, feel, or even taste stuff that reminds me of him, i feel like crying..i know that i have no choice but to follow the flow of things.. i don't have enough confidence to change the things that I wanted it to be..i can't even ask some viand in my uncle even if i know that the food is ours and he just cooked it for his wife..see how unconfident am i..
i know that there could be many persons this world could offer to me.. but he's totally different..nobody is like him..
...i've waited so many times for him to talk to me..but i still don't have the guts to tell him what I really feel for him..
i don't even want to go to practice on friday because i know that i will see him and it would be very painful for me..
.........i feel so undefined right now..my feelings is so topsy turvy..i really can't understand..i'm sorry..